"If you closed your eyes, you won't gaze into sadness."
"If you forget the feeling of warmth, you won't feel pain."

I can't recall that gentle voice
In the depths of my mourning heart.
Someone is calling me from my forgetten past,
Asking me when I will take sorrow into my hands again.


A little ship glitters silently in the distant, alone.
Swept away by a torrent of grief,
it disappears under the waves of my heart.
Why do I search the ocean depths aimlessly,
For the warmth that I should not have known

The feeling of wanting to be understand and..
the feeling of wanting to be understood

by just thinking this and not saying it, it will not going to the hearts of anyone.

if you really want people to change their perspective towards you , then accept the challenge face to face.

the tears that seeped into the cloth, will soon evaporate and disappear.
and...nothing will be left.
leaving you no time to wallow in your sorrow.
There is no use in showing your tears

I’m not strong enough to tell you about my feelings of insecurity

The dream I want to grasp, I was always being buried by my own answers to my questions within the interval of wishes

I sense weakness which could not be concealed every time I stumble blindly

Your existence strangles this body of mine.

There are things which will become tainted and time that flows on
But that’s right, because it’s definitely not a mistake …Yes, I’ll believe that

Someday my memories will fade...and your voice, your actions, I might forget them as well, but I will always remember that I loved you

Blue sky is in the distance.
It feels so close.
Yet, I cannot grab it even if I reach out with my hands
I looked up at the stars before.
The stars that I cannot reach and the wishes that will not be granted.
There is nothing we have been able to leave behind for each other.
Therefore, traces and memories will disappear someday.
But still..
Even if it will not reach her, there should be something that will remain in our hearts.
There is nothing that remains in our hands, but we lived the same time and looked up at the same things.
If I can remember that… I can believe that we can be together even if we are far apart.

暁の車


Shaded by the trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face-down crying
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again

Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming

The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently

In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell

Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance

Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning

一个人，无论再坚强，
还是会有软弱的一面。

While i was embracing my resentful emotions,
what you were saying was probably right.

I could turn back right now but, i'm just too stubborn.
I can't stop now that i've started walking.
I can't stop now because i dont have enough strength to turn back.

Will i have another chance? with my hands tainted with loneliness.

maybe i should start remembering who you are.
It's been too long since my heart has shown your face to my eyes.

When you dodge, “I’m afraid of getting cut”.
When you attack, “I’m afraid of cutting someone”.
Even when you try to protect someone; “I’m afraid of letting them die”.


Yes, your sword only speaks to me of absurd fear.
That’s not it.
What’s neccesary in a fight isn’t fear.
Nothing can be born from that.

If you dodge, “I won’t let them cut me”.
If you protect someone, “I won’t let them die”.
If you attack, “I’ll cut them”.

Well can’t you see…
… the resolve to cut you reflected in my sword?

I have no right to know. I don't have a method of stepping into the depths of your heart without getting it dirty. When you want to talk...when you think it's okay to talk...talk to me. Until that time, I'll wait.

.刚刚是做梦吧？
我记得似乎有了手，
可以抓住你，
很久没有这种感觉了，
可惜终究是梦……

龙葵—千年等待

大梦初醒已千年

　　凌乱罗衫
　　料峭风寒
　　放眼难觅旧衣冠
　　

疑真疑幻
　　如梦如烟
　　看朱成碧心迷乱
　　莫问生前
　　但惜因缘
　　魂无归处为情牵
　　贪恋人间
　　不羡神仙

“真诚和善良是不受任何时空限制的，只要做人立定脚跟，凡事坚持自己的原则，不管顺境，逆境，都不改其性，不变其情，命运迟早会眷顾你。”

will only time numb the pain..?

Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart

I have my reasons
I have my ways
I'm sorry if i hurt you
but i can't tell you anything.

not now, perhaps.


i am sorry

I seriously need to change my brain.
or the way i think.

or whatever.

How i wish time could stop, or slow down for me to understand things.
But it's not going to happen, forever..

I haven't felt happiness for so long i've forgotten what it feels like..

How a single thread of emotions could blacken my feelings without even a single spark of light. How a single feeling could overule my life. Fight it i must...

If i have a choice..i would rather get my old self back, even with the pain i will suffer again..
it is better than this, my now. As, i am nothing.. but a pool of darkness, blinding my sight.

Who will hold my hand, walk through this with me?