I seriously need to change my brain.
or the way i think.

or whatever.

How i wish time could stop, or slow down for me to understand things.
But it's not going to happen, forever..

I haven't felt happiness for so long i've forgotten what it feels like..

How a single thread of emotions could blacken my feelings without even a single spark of light. How a single feeling could overule my life. Fight it i must...

If i have a choice..i would rather get my old self back, even with the pain i will suffer again..
it is better than this, my now. As, i am nothing.. but a pool of darkness, blinding my sight.

Who will hold my hand, walk through this with me?