你知道什么叫绝望么？
就是当你对什么都失望的时候，
有人给了你希望，
当你有希望的时候，
让你彻底失望。
这就是绝望。

人生本来就是绝望的。
只是在绝望中，加点希望罢了。

Life is like a bus.
In the end we will all return to the start.

Everybody makes mistakes in their lives,
Mine is a huge one.
Oh yes.

I feel stupid if i switch, but i want to.
But then i don't want to, but somehow i can't carry on.
With the thing that's there's nobody to really tell you what to do.
You're 18, you're supposed to make decisions.
I guess being 18 kinda sucks now eh?

The root of the problem though,
is money , money , money.
Why can't they just drop down from trees?
Oh wait, because this is reality.
Who am i kidding?
Oh don't remind me darling, i know who it is.
Me.

Just take a knife and stab me ( literally )
And so i continue with my frivolous ways,
coming home at 9
not touching my work.
I'm actually not feeling the sense of urgency, although i know jolly well my studio is in deep shit.
Oh good, i'm going to fail and im not feeling anything.

maybe i should go back to my psychiatrist
HELLO THERE IM BACK
IVE GONE NUTS
again.

shouldn't have stoped my medicine when i still wasn't stable.
i just cut until i feel enough pain
different parts
careful not to bleed too much to leave obvious wounds...
but enough pain
its tasty.

Giddy with nuttiness.

風兒啊 吹散我的傷痛吧
不要讓他發現我流淚 求你了

It's a lot easier to be lost than found.
Its the reason we're always searching,
rarely discovered.

So many locks, not enough keys.

“Letters are just pieces of paper,” I said. “Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish.”

I have not been able to let go like you did,
Perhaps i have never possessed and cannot speak of letting go.

时间不会让人忘记伤痛，

只会让人习惯了痛

Its funny how someone says they love you,
you can't really feel it.

But when they say they don't love you anymore,
you can feel

Every ounce of what was drained out of your entire being.

Oh the irony.

Since that day
I decided to never cry
But even if I piled on the pain
There was something I couldn’t forgive

In the many days I can’t return to anymore
I still can’t do anything
Another fragment of memories with you
Is disappearing

I want to become stronger
Than I am today
So that my voice will reach you someday

Something that I should’ve locked up
Somewhere in my chest-
Now I feel like
I understand it a little

On the road continuing on endlessly
Even if there are more new scenes
You no longer exist anywhere
Only time simply passes by

Even if my teardrops
Turn into rain
I’ll look up at the stars shining unchanged
The drifting clouds will turn colorful

When I realize it
I’m growing up again
But even now, there’s nothing but things I don’t understand
Nevertheless, at the yonder of the distant sky
I believe we’ll be connected

If I keep on walking
And the wind stops
I’ll look up at the sky, searching for you
Light will beam out ahead of dawn
A rainbow will appear

You were always been dead ,
dead from the moment you were born. Who gave you the fine clothes you wear and comfortable home?
The food you eat and your very life?...
in short you are not nothing because you have never existed.

You were there for me when my world fell apart.
But you never told me anything,
what else can i say but sorry?

Most of the time you end up hurting the people you love the most when you're careless
We all know you're hot headed but ,
think of the people around you.

If you keep it up like that ,
you'll lose him .
Everybody's patience have a limit.

The new morning I've finally found
is being hampered by the past
What i chased after wasn't the future
but the past so full of remorse

Those ruthless memories won't stop playing
They won't be forgiven for a long time
It's about now that a tear drop
Begins to roll down my fatigued cheeks

Will this rain ever stop?
I've been freezing for a long time
why does the rain choose to fall on me
is it alright to be lost in it?

the rain does not know how to stop
it continues to fall today
but under the umbrella that gently reached out to me
i snuggle in the warmth

Whether I like him, whether I hate him, it's just all so troublesome. Love, companionship and friendship... it's nothing but trouble.

What do you think love is?
Love is something that seize everything you have.

That is love.

You are happy to have her trust,
you are happy to follow.

The way you love her is different the way she loves you .
The way you love her, will cause both lives.

Then, will you still continue this love?

바람꽃 Wind Flower

If I turn my back like this, If I disappear

I wouldn’t come into bloom

If I just look at you like this

It might be good to live with my eyes closed
Without looking, I see you

Without listening I hear you

Like a wind flower which revived by your breathing

I wish to reach you, but I can’t

I wish to hold you, but I can’t

Your fingertips reach my heart

Will you know, after long long night?

The love smiling in tears

I wish to catch you, but I can’t, I wish to reach you, but I can’t

Like a wind flower which revived in your heart

Even I don’t see you, I saw you Even I don’t hear you, I heard you

Getting scattered in the wind

Getting scattered into your heart

When i choose not to ask, it doesn't mean i don't care.
I don't know of a good way to ask without trampling over and putting shame to your feelings
I believe you will tell me when you want to, when you need to.
until you feel like you want to tell me, until you feel its alright to tell me.
until then, you don't need to

Then again, i have never been honest to you.

Ragnarok. Come Day of Wrath, O Pulse l'Cie. Embrace thy fate, thine home to burn. That fallen souls might bare our plea..To hasten the Divine's return. O piteous Wanderer, Ragnarok Make of this day a brave epoch. Deliever the Divine, Ragnarok.

The smell of greenery and the lush flowers had long gone.
With battered signs and buildings left to signify the passing of time and man.
What is left are only crystal dust

Despite the strong sunlight and relative warmth of the air,
this bleak landscape evokes an unsettling chill.
Hoping to change their fate upon their return
Their final glimpse of their home.


This land of Oerba.

原来，所有人都是骗子。

不过，最大的骗子，
还是我自己。

Knowing you'll always be welcomed, no matter how much has changed...That's what having a home is all about


When it comes to family or home, we never keep either as close as we should. Who ever stops to think that this time could be their last?

Make my wish come true, let darkness slip aside
Hiding all our hope, mocking what we treasure
Battles we can win, if we believe our souls
Hang in for the light, till dawn
Fate will not leave you, Hate will not heal you
Pray and one day, peace shall flow everywhere

可以自由憎恨了吗？
我的灵魂
怨恨也好
爱恋也好

Im starting to get tired of smiling now...
If they've found out the real me,
what would they think?