你知道什么叫绝望么？
就是当你对什么都失望的时候，
有人给了你希望，
当你有希望的时候，
让你彻底失望。
这就是绝望。

人生本来就是绝望的。
只是在绝望中，加点希望罢了。

Life is like a bus.
In the end we will all return to the start.

Everybody makes mistakes in their lives,
Mine is a huge one.
Oh yes.

I feel stupid if i switch, but i want to.
But then i don't want to, but somehow i can't carry on.
With the thing that's there's nobody to really tell you what to do.
You're 18, you're supposed to make decisions.
I guess being 18 kinda sucks now eh?

The root of the problem though,
is money , money , money.
Why can't they just drop down from trees?
Oh wait, because this is reality.
Who am i kidding?
Oh don't remind me darling, i know who it is.
Me.

Just take a knife and stab me ( literally )
And so i continue with my frivolous ways,
coming home at 9
not touching my work.
I'm actually not feeling the sense of urgency, although i know jolly well my studio is in deep shit.
Oh good, i'm going to fail and im not feeling anything.

maybe i should go back to my psychiatrist
HELLO THERE IM BACK
IVE GONE NUTS
again.

shouldn't have stoped my medicine when i still wasn't stable.
i just cut until i feel enough pain
different parts
careful not to bleed too much to leave obvious wounds...
but enough pain
its tasty.

Giddy with nuttiness.